2007年12月25日星期二

Reject 拒絕 VS Accept 接納


我想好多人都懂得拒絕但卻不懂得接納。不論是「守夜神 Night Watch」還是「守日神 Day Watch」,都給世人一個好大的訊息,那就是「接受自己的軟弱,拒絕罪的誘惑」。

主角安東一個錯誤的決定,引起好多好多不必要的 trouble 和 hazard。看第一部守夜神時,作者這樣形容過「神的使者再到來臨時,人們不接納祂,更將祂推往黑暗那邊」(俄文譯本)……雖然不知道翻譯員翻譯這句話時是否原全正確,但卻問了人們一個問題,我們會接納神的使者(耶穌 - 我覺得最貼切都是這個)嗎?人類是這麼醜陋的嗎?有光明卻不選擇,反之我們會選擇黑暗。這是一個好大的諷刺呢!

去到第二部守日神時,作者又發問了第二個問題「你願意面對你的犯錯嗎?」Well…我們若說自己沒有犯錯和犯罪就等同說謊。好多人都說自己沒有犯罪,對你是沒有犯罪,但你沒有犯的只是各國政府司法機關所定下的法例。人最失敗的,就是不能面對自己智識範圍外的東西,包括小弟 Mr. S 在內也一樣;而幸運的,我選擇了神,不知其他人的選擇如何。「命運之筆」在這個故事中反影了現實好多人都想擁有這個東西,好多人都想改變自己的命運。故事中講到這個道具的使用方法是不能隨隨便便就能使用,正確的使用方法是要在自己最初頭的地方使用,而那個地方正是人犯罪或犯錯的地方。

「命運之筆」的使用就正如我們如何面對自己的罪一樣,那支筆就是神,神給我們機會,而那個機會是能給我們重新來過,但先決條件是……「你要先找到自己犯下瀰天大禍的地方」。可能只是一件好微不足到的事情,但卻可以讓人抱憾終生的事,也可算之為「瀰天大禍」。朋友你願意面對嗎?故事中引述了中國元朝元太祖「鐵木真(翻譯員譯作「帖木兒」…那個翻譯員真是亂咁來,皇帝名都可以翻譯錯)死時的一句話 - 我雖能戰無不勝攻無不刻,但卻不能擁有整個天下,到死時更是一無所有」。不知鐵木真死時是否真的有講到這句話,回到現實就真的好貼切。

贏了世界卻賠上了生命

有人覺得值得,也有人說不值。觀點與角度則因人而異,但對小弟 Mr. S 來說,我情願放棄我一切所有的功名利錄,也想換回生命和人生最重要的東西 - 「愛」。

最後,這個三部曲的作品以守日守夜來形容魔鬼與天使的關係。誰說黑暗一族的名字不可以用日來代表呢?也有誰說過天使一定是身光頸靚的人呢?第三樣在這個故事中帶出的,正是這個問題,不要因外表美麗吸引而覺得是美好,外表美麗的東西往往都是有刺的。蛇蠍美人正是從此得來呢!

2007年12月17日星期一

Dirty For GOD & Clear For US - Amazing Grace

隱祕的事是屬耶和華我們 神的;惟有明顯的事是永遠屬我們和我們子孫的,好叫我們遵行這律法 的一切話。(申29:29)

The secret things belong to the LORD our God, but the things revealed belong to us and to our sons forever, that we may observe all the words of this law. (Deuteronomy 29 : 29)

Actually, I don't know why GOD willing to do this and promised this promise before. May GOD is beauty and perfect. The beautiful one is ... GOD never hate us since we offended him and did more illegal. Amazing Grace is it.

Thx GOD.

2007年12月16日星期日

祝福與詛咒只是一線之差

申命記 28 章講到︰

你若留意聽從耶和華你 神的話,謹守遵行他的一切誡命,就是我今日所吩咐你的,他必使你超乎天下萬民之上。你若聽從耶和華─你 神的話,這以下的福必追隨你,臨到你身上:你在城裡必蒙福,在田間也必蒙福。你身所生的,地所產的,牲畜所下的,以及牛犢、羊羔,都必蒙福。你的筐子和你的摶麵盆都必蒙福。你出也蒙福,入也蒙福。仇敵起來攻擊你,耶和華必使他們在你面前被你殺敗;他們從一條路來攻擊你,必從七條路逃跑。(1 - 7 節)

你若不聽從耶和華─你 神的話,不謹守遵行他的一切誡命律例,就是我今日所吩咐你的,這以下的咒詛都必追隨你,臨到你身上:在城裡必受咒詛,在田間也必受咒詛。你的筐子和你的摶麵盆都必受咒詛。身所生的,地所產的,以及牛犢、羊羔,都必受咒詛。你出也受咒詛,入也受咒詛。耶和華因你行惡離棄他,必在你手裡所辦的一切事上,使咒詛、擾亂、責罰臨到你,直到你被毀滅,速速的滅亡。耶和華必使瘟疫貼在你身上,直到他將你從所進去得為業的地上滅絕。耶和華要用癆病、熱病、火症、瘧疾、刀劍、旱風(或作:乾旱)、霉爛攻擊你。這都要追趕你,直到你滅亡。你頭上的天要變為銅,腳下的地要變為鐵。耶和華要使那降在你地上的雨變為塵沙,從天臨在你身上,直到你滅亡。耶和華必使你敗在仇敵面前,你從一條路去攻擊他們,必從七條路逃跑。你必在天下萬國中拋來拋去。你的屍首必給空中的飛鳥和地上的走獸作食物,並無人鬨趕。耶和華必用埃及人的瘡並痔瘡、牛皮癬與疥攻擊你,使你不能醫治。耶和華必用癲狂、眼瞎、心驚攻擊你。你必在午間摸索,好像瞎子在暗中摸索一樣。你所行的必不亨通,時常遭遇欺壓、搶奪,無人搭救。你聘定了妻,別人必與他同房;你建造房屋,不得住在其內;你栽種葡萄園,也不得用其中的果子。你的牛在你眼前宰了,你必不得吃他的肉;你的驢在你眼前被搶奪,不得歸還;你的羊歸了仇敵,無人搭救。你的兒女必歸與別國的民;你的眼目終日切望,甚至失明,你手中無力拯救。你的土產和你勞碌得來的,必被你所不認識的國民吃盡。你時常被欺負,受壓制,甚至你因眼中所看見的,必致瘋狂。耶和華必攻擊你,使你膝上腿上,從腳掌到頭頂,長毒瘡無法醫治。耶和華必將你和你所立的王領到你和你列祖素不認識的國去;在那裡你必事奉木頭石頭的 神。你在耶和華領你到的各國中,要令人驚駭、笑談、譏誚。你帶到田間的種子雖多,收進來的卻少,因為被蝗蟲吃了。你栽種、修理葡萄園,卻不得收葡萄,也不得喝葡萄酒,因為被蟲子吃了。你全境有橄欖樹,卻不得其油抹身,因為樹上的橄欖不熟自落了。你生兒養女,卻不算是你的,因為必被擄去。你所有的樹木和你地裡的出產必被蝗蟲所吃。在你中間寄居的,必漸漸上升,比你高而又高;你必漸漸下降,低而又低。他必借給你,你卻不能借給他;他必作首,你必作尾。這一切咒詛必追隨你,趕上你,直到你滅亡;因為你不聽從耶和華─你 神的話,不遵守他所吩咐的誡命律例。這些咒詛必在你和你後裔的身上成為異蹟奇事,直到永遠!(15 - 46 節)

昨天的道,一個好大的提醒「少禱告」、「少靈修」和「崇拜唔準時」的後果會是如何。梁牧師原來真的一點也沒有說笑。在聖經舊約中,原來申命記已有明確的記載,我們遠離神的後果。

從沒有想過這種事的我,今天的靈修真是給了我一個好大的提醒。從神而來的祝福並不是必然的。

感謝主!前幾天和朱仔及他的經理分享時,他們也給了我一個好大的提醒︰「你覺得你入去工作那個崗位能夠榮耀到神嗎?」哈哈!真的是當頭棒喝……之前係火車到無意聽到一位三唔識七既弟兄分享︰「我想我究竟係為榮耀神而在這裡工作,還是為左錢而工作呢?」

神說︰「無需擔心衣著居處,祂必日日夜夜保守供應。」

我現在卻依賴自己的智慧去行…也好像忘了神的教道。也許,她……但不能說是她。

2007年12月13日星期四

The End Of My Novel In Story Development

After the wedding, I responded to cleaning the wedding place. At that moment, something happened very unnatural but very artificial. It rained. Why did GOD rain when I cleaned the place? Another happen was I saw he was on the others side without umbrella.

He used his suit for an umbrella and cleaning himself with his handkerchief. He looked like resembles very distressingly. Suddenly, I was crying and felt worry about him. I did not know why. Actually, I hide his memory in my mind deeply. By the ways, my body represented the real of me.

He probably realized is unhappy to me, therefore then walked has come my side. He wanted to dry my tears but it can't.

I was crying, “Why didn't he try to wipe way my tears before?”

“Look who's talking?” He said.

“The last time I was worry and sad, you just took off.” I cried and hit himself. “I want back to you but you was a cowardly man and disappeared. You can't fall in love with me again.”

“Why not?”

“Because I'm not the lover as you knew before.” He was in a daze when he hears this.

“Does that bother you?”

“Of course it does.”

We hug ourselves together. In one's life, where're too many things you'd mind doing. At that moment, we only knew we minded losing others. May be it wasn't going to work between us. Recently, we started hating others again before or we started thinking of other as a burden. May be it's best that we to leave other in our own area.

There have one day in our life, you found that you was growth. At that moment, you would say goodbye for your youngest and naive and become mature. We begin to know the end of LOVE may not be rain, hate another, cried, and hurt another one. May be it was mature. Nobody know it is good or not. Anyway, grow up is like this.

For the last leaving, we paid special attention to the others news every time. We'll gossip the news around ourselves and search each happen close with others. We are a simple man on the Earth.

2007年12月10日星期一

The New Chapter Of My Life ?

Never gone from me
If there's one thing I believe (I believe)
I will see you somewhere down the road again

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close)
Everyday (everyday)
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye (yeah yeah)
I know you will be forever in my life (in my life)

Still not have a brave face to face with Carman. Well! The time is going on and we left about one and a half year. I still not forget and forgive myself. Even though work and study made me in a crazy situation and performance, I would become stop.

I tried my best to
concentrate my spirit in job seeking and assignment. UnForget! UnForgive! This two words has lived in my heart since I lost my true love. I don't deep into a black hole no matter how do I do?

Some people or classmates read my facebook sometimes. However, my blogger is very privacy. Only my best and dearest have this blog website. Thank you for everyone who concerned me before.

Let me go to the new chapter and hope tomorrow will be better.